First off, for those who haven't heard yet, I'm 7 weeks pregnant!! Yay!(?)
Because of this, I've been thinking a lot lately about why pregnancy has to be SO DANG MISERABLE and why I have to suffer so much just to have a baby. I was promised years ago that pregnancy would be a choice time in my life where I felt close to Heaven and to God, but so far I've just felt miserable and mopey. I had an attitude check last week reading about president Hinckley's unflagging optimism reminding me that I usually take pride in being that kind of person but I've been failing terribly at it lately. So I've been trying to be more optimistic about the hardships of pregnancy and the all day morning sickness hasn't been nearly so stifling these past couple days. Another result of my attitude check was that this morning I started to ponder more sincerely why pregnancy has to be so hard instead of just complaining about it. As I was thinking I remembered a quote from Thomas Pain:
"What we obtain to cheep we esteem to lightly, tis dearness only that gives everything it's value. Heaven knows how to put a proper price upon its goods and it would be strange indeed if so celestial an article as freedom should not be highly valued."
Heaven knows how to put a proper price upon its goods. And I thought, wouldn't it be strange indeed if there was no price to pay for the creation of a new life? I remembered also that I've been taught for years that the process of pregnancy and birth is reflective of the atonement of the Savior, when He gave us new life and prepared a way for us to be born again through His blood and pain.
Maybe keeping that in mind is how I can feel close to heaven and to the Savior as I continue through this pregnancy. If nothing else it's given me tremendous comfort this morning.
